When we were born we only had 2 fears, loud noises and falling. As we grow we have trust of those around us to give us our needs and we strike out exploring and trying new things and we believe the world revolves around us and we believe anything is possible. Then the world without starts to influence us and the fears creep in as well as the limitations. This continues and strengthens as we age.
Last week as I was listening to the webinar and doing the readings from the Master Key, I had an epiphany. I realized the power within that I am trying to focus on and to get to work on my dreams, is something that I have tapped into before. I can think of 2 occasions very vividly. If I have done it before, I can do it again, I just have to break down that old blue print that I built in the time since those 2 events. I would like to share what they were so maybe others can see similar things that may have happened in their youth and realize, like I did, that they too have taped into that power.
The first time I can think of that the thoughts I kept telling myself worked on my subconscious to bring about my desires was between the ages of 16 and 17. I had had my first dating relationship which was full of what not to do’s, but at 16 you really don’t know anything about relationships. It only lasted 4 months and the details are not the significant part of it. It was the lessons I took from the relationship and the ideals I set for any subsequent relationships. I made a solemn oath that nothing would alter the expectations I set for myself and those I had relationships with in the future. I stuck to my guns. Part of this was not dating for a full year and solidifying what it is I really wanted from relationships (I know a bit mature for a 16 year old, but I am not average). After that year was over, I had become very good friends with my the person I would spend the rest of my life with. I had put the demand out there for what I wanted and my subby made it happen, and FAST. We started dating our senior year and were married 5 1/2 years later. We have been happily married for 21 1/2 years and he is my soul mate!
The second time I remember, I was in college commuting back and forth. I was not getting along with my mom. The transition from parent/child relationship to parent/adult child relationship was not as smooth as either of us wanted.
One day , I just asked my physics partner if she needed a roommate the following year, and she said yes. So the plans were made and that September I moved out without my mother’s blessing. Was I prepared? Had I thought it all through? Absolutely not!!! But there’s the beauty of it. I put the demand out there again and my subby took care of everything. With in a week of moving in, I had the best student employment job EVER! I was a lab tech in an entomology lab. Not only did I work in the lab, the following summer they let me do directed research which resulted in my graduating a quarter early. I had struggles, definitely, but I was able to become the adult I wanted to be and when I graduated and moved back home for the 9 months before I was married, I was able to have a good relationship with my mom.
So I have been there, the trick now is losing the baggage and finding those old trails I foraged so long ago. I CAN be what I WILL to be.