Hope: to want something to happen or be true and think that it could happen or be true; to cherish a desire with anticipation.
On this weeks webinar, Trish said something that gave me hope. She said she had stumbled recently. I was kind of surprised Here was one of the co-creators of the MKE, and she stumbles too? A feeling of relief washed over me to know that even they can stumble. I realized, we are ALL works in progress!
I have been stumbling a lot this year and it wasn’t until very recently that I came to the realization of what was causing it. I knew it was my old blueprint trying to stay in the picture, but what part of it was it exactly? I couldn’t squash it unless I could identify what part it was.
Well it turns out one of my old “bad” habits was piling on more than I can handle. I would have to say I am definitely addicted to those peptides, although unpleasant. I am always adding things to my overfull plate.
Thankfully, awareness is the first step in recovery. It’s going to be a long road for me. The commitments I have taken on are long term. So how do I “fix” this?
I have been taking time to observe my patterns and habits so I can come to a better understanding of where to go from here. I realized I have a crazy, chaotic schedule during the week. I literally go from one thing on to the next on-stop. It’s exhausting. So I have scheduled my weekends to catch up on all the things left undone during the week.
“How’s that going for you?” you might ask. Lousy! I am so tired from all the running during the week, that I end up doing very little or nothing on the weekends. Then I have to fight off the negative self talk that tries to enter when I have failed to accomplish anything.
So coming to this awareness, I have decided to not try to catch up on the weekends. I need to take time for me and to listen to what my body is telling me and give it some rest.
I know that seems like it will only add to the problem of having too much on my plate. Actually, it feel freeing. I know that at the end of an action packed week, there WILL be guilt free rest and relaxation. Something that is important to everyone’s health physically and mentally.
It does not mean I get to continue on as I have been though. I need to make the most of my whirlwind week. It means the two days I have to devote to my business MUST be held sacred! I MUST do the activities that will advance me toward my goals and let nothing deter me from them.
And I make a solemn oath to myself that nothing will retard my new life’s growth.
This is where I have struggled this year. I do my OATS and have good intentions, but let my old blueprint sneak in and add little errands and appointments come into my business hours.
My new awareness of this habit has allowed me to refocus those business hours and my productivity has increased. I feel like I am accomplishing things. I have made it through the detour in my hero’s journey and I am back on track. It feels good!
So if you are stumbling, know you are not alone! Even those seasoned travelers on the hero’s journey stumble every now and then. It makes us stronger in the end. The important thing is that we get up and keep going.
I will persist until I succeed!