I heard one time that dreams are like wishes – they are so much fun to hold in your mind – to examine in depth and simply enjoy; the feelings and emotions that they elicit as you fawn over the AWESOME-ness that their realization would bring – they are so much fun…that you forget they are no more real than the faeries that flit through the flower beds on a lazy afternoon spreading wishes like dandelion seeds…
This week the universe sent me a message… like a worn piece of parchment, ribbon wrap'd and tucked in a bottle that – barring intervention of an Infinite Intelligence – should have shattered on the rocks, it's vital contents lost to the tide and turbulence of life.
The strangest thing was I recognized the handwriting. I should – I've sent myself the same message so many times I swear to God that it's tattooed to the inside of my skull…
To know the truth, to be sure, to be confident, affords a satisfaction beside which no other is at all comparable; it is the only solid ground in a world of doubt, conflict and danger. — MK 9 (6)
And the message was this:
Live a life of abundance. Live every moment filled with the vitality that there is no limit on the resources we control. You are a wonderful, intelligent, amazing individual with the talent to change the world – if you choose to. Spend your life wisely, taking care not to waste it, for you have no choice over the amount expended, merely the methods and value of it's exchange.
I so want to be that person, dancing on the wind enjoying life's bountiful abundance….
“So – I have been trying to understand why I hesitate – why for me that moment of time between the knowing of a thing and it's doing is stretched to the point of fracture. I know what I need to do to live a life of true abundance – yet my old blue print sneaks in and turns “I'm possible” back into a mediocre “impossible”. And as I come to realize the purpose of our sits within the Master Keys – that we are truly designing – architecting – our DMPs with meticulousness in the details of it's realization, it materialization, so that it is built upon Truth and Justice for ALL whom it's realization affects.
I know that no position or wealth can long endure unless it is built on Truth and Justice. Therefore I engage in no transaction athat does not benefit all whom it affects. Blue Print Builder – part 5
Somehow I have made it this far in life, made a relatively successful foray of it even – but missed one VITAL point. That word -all-. It's only three letters, but it makes a universal difference in how and why -and WHICH – things are done.
My old blue print is one of intentional, methodical, and subconscious self-sabotage in the guise of “love and charity” towards others – and like the skin of the battleship peeled back and discarded last week… it is time for it to be exposed to the world – and myself – for what it is. One cannot live with fidelity to a principle and subconsciously sabotage that principle at every turn… so, let's see if we can expose this thing to the light of consciousness and forgive.
The principle: To give, without expectation of reciprocity, from the channels I enrich for I am in the dynamic flow of giving and receiving.
The blue-print: Take the skills you have (and you might even be REALLY good at) but do not advance your Dharma and book life solid with those activities because you can give (and give and give to the point of sacrifice) with those. You can make lots of people happy using those skills and THAT is what you're “supposed” to do.
— believe me, writing it out I can see how much bullshit there is in that… but inside, where you've accepted decades of training from the people you trusted to have your best interest at heart and to teach you well… well in there it somehow makes sense and seems “right”…
My life is so full of things that need me to “Do It Now” that I can barely see room for “me” in among all the stuff that ‘needs' to be done. And every single time I think there's a moment where I can catch a break for me to work on my DMP plan of action… there's ONE MORE thing that “needs” to be done “for someone else” that doesn't advance MY Dharma…
I have to admit, I know exactly where this came from – this blueprint that puts other's before myself – and I also have to admit that I have known that this is evil wrapped up in a gilt blanket to look like selfless-ness and Christian love…hell aren't we TAUGHT to “Love our neighbor”… only sometimes the meaning is lost in translation…
The Truth: You cannot give without expectation of reciprocity – if you are NOT doing what advances your Dharma. It's those Seven Laws coming back around to balance life out – to make things right. Or – as Emerson might say “In the seed of every act lies the reward or punishment according to it's intent”.
There it is – I grew up subconsciously leaving myself out of that statement. ALL means, well…all. I'm in there too.
So on the one hand I am living the principle that “I always keep my promises” – integrity has ALWAYS been huge with me…
While on the other, having broken fidelity to myself, I have never been able to give completely without expectation of reciprocity – because I wasn't even doing the things that I wanted to be doing. How can you possibly give without expectation of reciprocity – honestly and with NO reservation – when you aren't giving yourself ANYthing to begin with?
My apologies in retrospect… this has been one of my less well worded and thought out posts, but at the same time- if you made it this far… THANK YOU for letting me purge the thoughts from my head as they came. There is so much that I need to work through the Law of Forgiveness on this next week, I think I am VERY glad that we have some time off.
Thank you Mark and Davene- and all the staff and guides I have interacted with – it has been (and will be) nothing but spectacular as ever more clarity is focused into my DMP.
Finding and doing what you love – I get it, I think. It doesn't matter what it really is – as long as ALL whom it affects benefit from the doing.