I had to stop right in the middle of everything this morning and put these thoughts down for posterity – and perhaps someone will experience the unbelievable AH-HA moment that I had in its revelation…
This morning I chose not to get out of bed at 4:45am – and a small part of my mind went “… failure?”
I then chose to stay in bed at 5:30 – my normal time for morning readings of the Blue Print Builder, our cards, and my DMP… and again the debate in my mind…At 6:30 am this morning I got out of bed and yes – my vitality and vigor ARE way up from what they used to be when I got up…but this morning something pushed me for the first time ever in this course, to change the sequence of my readings. Instead of BPB, cards, DMP shouted from the back deck – echoing off the neighbors silos! – and then back inside to warm up as I read the Master Key and meditate… today something (and I cannot help but see it as my growing connection to the Infinite Intelligence) suggested that I read the Master Key first.
During that reading of the Master Key several things clicked into place – some I wouldn't even realize for another 30 minutes.
It is thus that fate, fortune, and DESTINY will be controlled as readily as a captain controls his ship, or an engineer, his train.
The above emphasis is mine, to remind myself of the myriad connections that are made
through the architecture of words in coming into an acceptance and possession
of the power within each of us …here's a rough draft of my DMP to complete this example.
Today the added affirmation given to us on Sunday (I can be all that I will to be) drove the following point home – but I think the connection was made inside me during the reading of my Blueprint Builder. This morning, as I was reading through my BPB I stumbled frequently – mixing words around just a little, missing a word or two as I tried to recite from memory (You got close enough, that's good enough…says my old blueprint…)
And on the fourth paragraph these THREE thoughts collide in rapid succession:
- “I have clearly written down a description of…”
- “This is the week to quit…quit giving less than 100%”
That's it – the most powerful realization was that SINGLE LETTER representing a SINGLE WORD – that means EVERYTHING… BOOM and the tears started to uncontrollably flow (as they do now – what the heck…) as I went back to the beginning, looked up at the horizon and said out loud:
“I am sorry, that old good enough … isn't… any more. “I” am worth so much more than a simple 100% effort – and that clearly wasn't even that.”
And I began again – reading through the tears but feeling a thrill within me – I had no idea at the moment what … goosebumps, emotions, something right? And read EVERY WORD PERFECTLY and with emotion…
The “I” of you is not the physical body, that is simply an instrument which the “I” uses to carry out its purposes; the “I” cannot be the Mind, for the mind is simply another instrument which the “I” uses with which to think, reason, and plan. MK 4-1
Your personality…<is> the result of your former method of thinking, but <it> has nothing to do with the real “I”. MK 4-3
…the real nature of this “I” is spiritual, and is the source of the real power which comes to men and women when they come into a realization of their true nature. MK 4-4
… When the objective mind has been satisfied that the thought is true it is sent to the Solar Plexus…to be made into our flesh, to be brought forth into the world as reality. … MK 3 -4
I have said before, but never connected with the thought, that it seems we have a three-tiered existence… and I think it finally clicked for me reading my Blue Print Builder… Just as I acknowledge the phrasing of “Father, Son, and Holy Spirit” from my religious upbringing, I begin to see the connections that
We are coming to think of God as dwelling in man rather than as operating on men from without. MK 4-18
Know ye not that ye are the temple of the living God? 1 Cor 3:16
The “I” encompasses everything – it is our representation within, and connection to, the Infinite Intelligence… Is this intelligence the “Father”? Our bodies are the corporal representations of us within this temporal and physical existence… the Son? (And the Word was made flesh, and dwelt among us John 1:14) And as the previous phrase implies, the Word – a command, a series of thoughts (?), a ghost if you will of power and all things that were, are, and may yet be?
There is no discernible separation to me, given this understanding, between the “I” (as our individualization of the Infinite) and the Universal Intelligence (as the generalization of all of “us”).
As I read through the rest of my Blue Print Builder, all three cards, and my full DMP… every single time I hit “I” in those there was new meaning and understanding – more power and purpose. And as my “Do It Now! I can be all that I will to be” echoed off the neighbor's silos I finally let understanding in and accepted that I had been focussed on finding “my own power” from the outside for too long.
…I finally understand… the Great “I am”.